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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004

Time:9:23 pm.
im switching journals because Caylon's dad blocked us from looking at livejournals so dont read this anymore. when i get the new URL for my new journal ill put it in here. bye




PALAA!!!
Comments: 3 Mortal Wounds - Im Immortal From Your Razor Sharp Words.

Sunday, June 6th, 2004

Subject:fill out thingy
Time:8:18 pm.
------- STARTING QUESTIONS ------

1.) Full Name?:Jessica Nicole Hodges
2.) Birthday?: March 29, 89
3.) Zodiac?: Aires
4.) Nationality?: white
5.) What time is it?: 8:19 pm
6.) Whats the date?: June 6th

-----WHO DID THESE THINGS LAST?-----

7.) Called you?: Kt
8.) Yelled at you?: mom
9.) Saw you cry?: Norma, Caylon, Tavitha, Bill, and Justin
10.) Made you cry?: mom
11.) Made you laugh?: Justin
12.) You shared a drink with?: caylon
13.) You went to the movies with?: I went and Harry Potter 3 w/ Caylon, David, and Justin!
14.) Went out to eat with?: Caylony and Shelly
15.) Bought you something?: mom
16.) Sent you an e-mail?: Live Journal

------HAVE YOU EVER------

17.) Kissed someone?: yes
18.) Been kissed?: yes
19.) Said "I love you" and meant it?: yes
20.) Been to New York?: no
21.) Been to Florida?: yes
22) California?: no
23.) Hawaii?: no
24.) Mexico?: no
25.) Europe?: no
26.) Canada?: no
29.) Stalked someone?: no
30.) Snuck out?: yes
31.) Wished you were the opposite sex?: yes
32.) Had an imaginary friend?: yes

------- MORE -----

33.) What time is it now?: 8:21
34.) Black or white?: black
35.) TV or movie?: movie
36.) Cat or dog? cat
37.) walmart or target?: wal-mart
38.) Spring or Fall?: fall
39.) Sun or rain?: sun
40.) What are you gonna do after this?: who knows.
41.) What was the last meal you ate?: tacos
42.) High school or college?: college
43.) Are you bored?: somewhat
44.) Last TV show you watched?: some thing on FUSE
45.) Last movie you saw in theaters?: HARRY POTTER 3!!!!!
46.) Last noise you heard?: Justin open the door, Tabitha yawn, and now Justins walking by
47.) Last smell you smelled?: Justins stuff

------ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS------

48.) Laughs the weirdest?: Caylon
49.) Makes you laugh the most?: thats a tie between Kt C and Caylon
50.) Who have you known the longest that you still keep in contact w/?: Ky C
51.) Loudest?: Kt
52.) Is the quietest: none.
53.) Is the weirdest?: no idea.
54.) Is the funnest?: all of them.
55.) Who is the moodiest?: me
56.) Biggest player?: I know a wanna be player.. .::coughshawncough::.
57.) Who do you usually go to about all of your problems?: Kt
58.) Who comes to you?: Kt and Caylon
59.) Things you like in a guy?: HAIR! all about the hair! and eyes.
60.) Do you think someone is cool? sure?
61.) Do they know?: i guess.. .::turns around and says, "Justin, i think your cool" and Justin laughs::.
62.) Do you have a bf/gf?: no..

-------EXTRAS ------

63) Do you have your license?: no
64.) What book are you reading now?: im not
65.) Nicknames: Jessi, Jess
66.) Hair Color: dark blonde
67.) Height: 5'6"
68.) Pets: jere, one dog, 1 cat, at my moms, 2 cats
69.) Siblings: one sister, but since caylon pratically adopted me, i have 2 brothers, and 3 sisters
70.) Have you ever been so drunk you didn't remember that you were drunk?: nahh
71.) Taken any illegal substances: yes
72.) Gone out in public in your pajamas: yes, all the time
73.) Played ding-dong-ditch?: no
74.) Streaked?: no
75.) Kept a secret from everyone: yes
76.) Wanted to hook up with a friend/date them: yes
77.) Did something illegal?: yes
78) Did you get caught?: no and yes
79.) Gotten arrested?: yes
80.) Gotten a ticket for something?: no
81.) Stalk someone?: ya already asked this.
82.) Prank called someone: yes

-------FAVORITES-------

83.) Shampoo: idk
84.) Soap: Dove
85.) Colors: Pink and black
86.) Day or Night: night
87.) Summer/Winter: winter
88.) Plant?: none
89.) Cartoon Character: Cosmo

--------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS ---------

90.) Cried: oh yes.
91.) Cut your hair: no
92.) Worn a skirt: no
93.) Been mean: yeah
94.) Been sarcastic: yes
95.) Talked to someone you have a crush on: HA! yes! .::coughjustincough::.
96.) Hugged someone: yes
97.) Fought with your parents: yes
98.) Got in an argumant with your best friend: yeah
99.) Laughed until you cried: OMG YES! and it hurt too
100.) Played Truth or Dare: no
101.) Watched a sunrise/sunset : yes
102.) Went to the beach at night: no
103.) Spent quality time alone: yes, for once in my life.

------------ RANDOM ------------

104 ) Are you bored: i guess
105.) Are you lonely: no
106.) Are you happy: no.
107 ) Do you drink: no
108.) Do you smoke? hell no
109.) What is your full name?: you already asked!
110.) Who named you?: mom
111.) When was the last time you showered?: like 2 hours ago
112.) What color pants do you have on right now? baggy blue jeams w/pink threds
113.) What song are you listening to right now?: im watching tv
114.) What color is your shirt?: black
115.) What is right next to you?: speakers
116.) What is your computer desk made of?: wood?
117.) What are the last 4 digits in your phone #: 1415
118 ) Are you eating anything?: no
119.) How's the weather right now?: nice
120.) What did you do last night? sat around and talked to Justin till 9 am
121.) How are you today?: not good
122.) What makes you sad? alot of htings
123.) What makes you happy? friends.
124.) What makes you mad? alotta things.
125.) What do you want to be when you grow up? lawyer
126.) What are you doing tomorrow? going to court
127.) My fave music: emo
128.) Favorite Food?: idk
129.) Fave girls perfume?: idk
130:) Fave guys cologne?: Adidas.
131.) Do you like the guy or the girl to make the first move?: guy.
132.) Are you too shy to ask someone out? yes
133.) Fave clothes brand?: dont matter
134.) If you could change your name what would it be?: idk
135.) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: sometimes
136.) What is the stupidest thing you have ever done: to many things to tell
137.) What will your first son's name be?: Conor
138.) Your daughters?: promise
139.) Favorite drink?: Dr.Pepper
140.) Are you a flirt?: kinda
141.) On the phone or in person? person
142.) Lust or Love? love
Comments: 2 Mortal Wounds - Im Immortal From Your Razor Sharp Words.

Subject:so
Time:4:51 pm.
my mom isnt taking me to church. and i talked to liz, and shes full of shit. im screwed.
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Subject:i just needed someone to talk to, but you were too busy w/yourself
Time:3:51 pm.
Mood: numb,. scared.
Music:Staind, System of a Down.
so im suppoed to be going to the illusion show at central tonight. but me and mom are still fighting, so i dontk now if shes coming or not. i have to go to court tomorrow, so i have to spend tonight there, and then go, and i dont know whats gonna happen, im so scared. and shes not helping at all, and i tried to talk to her about it, and she just tryd to avoid it, and when i didnt let her, she just started a fight. so yeah... and she said it dont look good. so yeah, i dont know. and last night, i didnt sleep at al, and i had taked some slepeing pills... sp i just sat on the couch, and talked to Justin untill 9 oclock in the morning, and i slept till 11, and then i got up, and called my mom back, and had another fight, then i get ready. and now im listeing to Satind on my cd plaer, and its great. i can dedoicate almost all of these songs to my mom.

"Pressure"
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night

I can't take this I come unglued
I just need this to be alright
I can't feel this another night

I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake

Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure

If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear

I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake

Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure

My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight am I going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in

Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure

TOO MUCH PRESSURE!

this one is my favorite:

"Fade"



I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

I never meant to fade...
Away

I NEVER MEANT TO FADE

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

I try to breathe...

and this is my "fuck you" song

"For You"



To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?

I sit locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!

The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions

'Cause I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere to fast!

All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast

i find it apporite.

i just like this one:
"Epiphany"



Your words to me just a whisper
Your faces so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the thing's I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause i don't take anymore
or this, I want to come apart.
or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

now for a littel System of a Down

CHOP SUEY!
Wake up,
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup),
Grab a brush and put a little,
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the,
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable

You wanted to,
Grab a brush and put a little makeup,
You wanted to,
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup,
You wanted to,
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table,
You wanted to,

I don't think you trust,
In, my, self righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die, Die,

Wake up,
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup),
Grab a brush and put a little,
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the,
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable

You wanted to,
Grab a brush and put a little makeup,
You wanted to,
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup,
You wanted to,
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table,
You wanted to,

I don't think you trust,
In, my, self righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die
In my, self righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die

Father, Father, Father, Father,
Father/ Into your hands/I/commend my spirit,
Father, into your hands,

Why have you forsaken me,
In your eyes forsaken me,
In your thoughts forsaken me,
In your heart forsaken, me oh,

Trust in my self righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die,
In my self righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die

NEEDLES
I cannot disguise,
All the stomach pains,
And the walking of the canes,
When you, do come out,
And you whisper up to me
In your life of tragedy,

But I cannot grow,
Till you eat the last of me,
Oh when will I be free,
And you, a parasite,
Just find another host,
Just another fool to roast,

Cause you,
My tapeworm tells me what to do,
You,
My tapeworm tells me where to go,
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey

I cannot deny,
All the evil traits,
And the filling of the crates,
When you, do come out,
And you slither up to me
In your pimpin majesty,

But I cannot grow,
Till you eat the last of me,
Oh when will I be free,
And you, a parasite,
Just find another host,
Just another stool to post,

Cause you,
My tapeworm tells me what to do,
You,
My tapeworm tells me where to go,
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of me?

I'm just sitting in my room,
With a needle in my hand,
Just waiting for the tomb,
Of some old dying man,
Sitting in my room,
With a needle in my hand,
Just waiting for the tomb,
Of some old dying man?.

Cause you,
My tapeworm tells me what to do,
You,
My tapeworm tells me where to go,
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey
Hey,Hey,Hey,Hey.

Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy,
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy,
Psycho groupie cocaine crazy,
Psycho groupie coke,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Makes you really want to go- stop.

Psycho groupie cocaine crazy
Psycho groupie coke,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Do you really want to think and stop,
Stop your eyes from flowing,

Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy,
Psycho groupie cocaine crazy,
Psycho groupie coke,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Makes you really want to go - stop.
Psycho groupie cocaine crazy
Psycho groupie coke,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Do you really want to think and stop,
Stop your eyes from flowing out

So you want the world to stop,
Stop in and watch your body fully drop,
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy,

So you want to see the show,
You really don't have to be a ho
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy.

Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy,
Psycho groupie cocaine crazy,
Psycho groupie coke,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Makes you really want to go - stop.

Psycho groupie cocaine crazy
Psycho groupie coke,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Do you really want to think and stop,
Stop your eyes from flowing out

So you want the world to stop,
Rushing to watch your spirit fully drop,
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy,

So you want to see the show,
You really don't have to be a ho
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy.

god, i need a knife. or a gun. either. i need one.
Comments: Im Immortal From Your Razor Sharp Words.

Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004

Subject:"Jude Law And A Semester Abroad"
Time:3:46 pm.
Whatever poison is in this bottle will leave me broken sore and stiff.
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at.
He owes me one last wish.
So here's a present to let you know I still exist.
I hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly contagious on his lips.
I got a plan.
Drink (drift) for forty days and forty nights.
A sip for every second-hand tick.
And for every time you fed me the line, "you mean so much to me...".
I'm without you.

So tell all the English boys you meet about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
Who would do anything you say.

And even if her plane crashes tonight she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage, or drowning at the bottom of the sea.
"Jess, I still taste you, thus reserve my right to hate you."
And all this empty space that you create does nothing for my flawless sense of style.
It's 8:45. The weather is getting better by the hour.
I hope it rains there all the time.
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied.
I'm without you. So tell all the English boys you meet...

Okay, no more songs about you.
After this one I'm done.
You're gone.
You're never gonna get it right.
Comments: Im Immortal From Your Razor Sharp Words.

Subject:more quizes
Time:3:32 pm.



Which 1990's Subculture Do You Belong To?


[Another Quiz by Kris
@ couplandesque.net]



is that Conor Oberst?!?!?!? I DO believe so! .::drools::.


HASH(0x884390c)
you are an emo pussy. stop whining about how your
girlfriend dumped you and get the fuck over it.
go cry. stop feeling sorry for yourself, cause
everyone is sick of hear it you dumb asshole.


what kind of asshole scene kid are you?
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i bet the person that made that quiz in an emo kid.

Jude Law And A Semester Abroad
Jude Law And A Semester Abroad--You're missing
them..and they couldn't care less. Poor baby.
Just remember..revenge is sweet!


Which Brand New song are YOU?
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this might have some truth!! .::evil smile::.
Comments: 2 Mortal Wounds - Im Immortal From Your Razor Sharp Words.

Subject:OMFG!!! OMG! LMAO LMAO LMAO!! OMG KT!!!
Time:3:24 pm.
Mood: giggly.
Music:Switchfoot still.
Deah By A Celebrity by Borellus
Your Name
Your Age
The Celebrity Who Will Kill YouBam Margera
How?They fuck you until you drop dead from exhaustion
Date Of DeathAugust 13, 2009
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!






LMAO!!!!! LMAO!!!! woohoo! Kt! lmao! omg..
Comments: 2 Mortal Wounds - Im Immortal From Your Razor Sharp Words.

Subject:Friends Only
Time:12:30 am.

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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004

Subject:LMAO!
Time:6:16 pm.
i love kt, and this is why:

DirtyLowConverse (6:13:35 PM): lmao, i wanna see 2 guys cuddle
DirtyLowConverse (6:13:35 PM): lol
TheRealWiShBeAr (6:14:58 PM): i wouldnt care if it was Adam and Aaron or Adam and Ville or Adam and Bam or Ville and Bam or Ville and Aaron or Aaron and Bam
DirtyLowConverse (6:15:14 PM): LMAO, h/o, caylon has to read that
TheRealWiShBeAr (6:15:35 PM): lol ok
DirtyLowConverse (6:15:50 PM): lmao
DirtyLowConverse (6:15:55 PM): thats so great!
TheRealWiShBeAr (6:15:59 PM): lmao im gonna post that in my journal
DirtyLowConverse (6:16:04 PM): i just read it out lond, and Justin cracked up!
DirtyLowConverse (6:16:08 PM): lmao
DirtyLowConverse (6:16:10 PM): ok, me to
DirtyLowConverse (6:16:11 PM): lmao
TheRealWiShBeAr (6:16:26 PM): lmao!

OMG! thats so great! lol


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Monday, May 31st, 2004

Subject:"Pretty Pathetic"
Time:10:10 pm.
Mood: Pathetic.
Music:Ataris.
[Originally by Smoking Popes]

You should have heard me sobbing
As I drove home that night
Got in the bed and stayed there
For days I just laid there
Having been permanently changed
But we won’t give into that now
Let’s take it from the start
You should have seen me smiling
Like the world was mine
She used to call me baby
Softly, sometimes
But if I dwell on those days to long
I feel like my life is over
And that’s no good so lets move on
To the part where I began to sense
Her distance
I barely can hold on tighter
And that makes it worse
Cause how am I supposed
To take it when she says
This is something im going through
It’s got nothing to do with you
I had a special evening all planned out
Desperately determined to re ignite
Some spark between us
She had to feel something for me
A love as strong as ours
Doesn’t just go away
You can’t just turn it off
Unless she was lying all those times
But I don’t think so
I really don’t think so
The way she used to look at me
Made me a thousand feet high
The meaning of the word cool
Not the same geek
Who fumbled with his words that night
The ugliest night
I said some pretty awkward things
I got the feeling she felt sorry for me
I should have seen it was hopeless and left it alone
But I had to go on
Embracing my self
I MISS WHAT WE HAD I NEED YOU SO BADLY
I must have sounded pretty pathetic I know
And that’s why I don’t blame her for what she said
Listen to her rambling
And we don’t know each other that well
But you’re so easy to talk to
I feel I could tell you almost anything
I hope I haven’t put you off
I have a tendency to do that
Why don’t I just be quiet.


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Subject:NEW TBS
Time:1:42 pm.
"A Decade Under The Influence"

Well, that's more sweet, so delicate
It used to be this dying breed
Well I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window...
Well, I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about...

You used to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Well that's more sure in porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
Well I've got a bad feeling about this (because of this)
I've got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window
Well I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about...

You used to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well, say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Well I got a bad feeling about this (what is this for?)
I got a bad feeling about...

Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle

Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought of you and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on)
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought of you and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on)
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought of you and my worst brings out the best in you.
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought of you and my worst brings out the best in you.
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought of you and my worst brings out the best in you
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you, in...)
I got a bad feeling about this (you, in...)
I got a bad feeling about this (you, in...)
I got a bad feeling about this (you, in...)
I got it bad (you)
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad


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Time:12:42 am.
Music:Sugercult.
I Changed My Name

I couldn't sleep last night
My ears were ringing in my head
Best friends with the boogie man
I may be better off here dead
Running on empty once again
Too tired for tears I dread
Sink deep into those magic dreams
While I blast off in my bed

And you know I played it all in here
Where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears
And I threw my whole night down the drain
You know cause everyone says that i'm not the same
Since I changed my name

Three hours later and i'm staring at the ceiling still
Xanax does nothing more but calm the sleeping thrill
Turning the pillows round and round to find the cold spot for my head
Ah, bless my only friend

And you know I played it all in here
Where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears
And I threw my whole night down the drain
You know cause everyone says that i'm not the same
And everyone turns tricks for fickle fame

I feel my body's lost control
My knees get weak as I drift away
And it gets darker, darker
Dreaming's where I am

And you know I played it all in here
Where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears
And I threw my whole night down the drain

And you know I played it all in here
Where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears
And I threw my whole night down the drain
You know cause everyone says that i'm not the same
Since I changed my name


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Sunday, May 30th, 2004

Subject:"Bad Case Of Broken Heart"
Time:2:12 pm.
Music:Ataris.
today I'm missing something
in this small new england town.
here's to you my best friend.
just want to say that I miss
having you around.

I'm staring at your pictures
and dreaming that I could hold your hand.
we'd walk down to the ocean
and I would write your name in the sand.

they say sometimes you need some time apart
but I've got a bad case of broken heart.
and you're the only one that's got the cure.
and I can't live another day without seeing you smile.

2000 miles between us and I guess that I'm the one to blame.
relationships and heartaches,
these two things are one and the same.

the radio plays our love song.
I smash my fist right through the dial.
here's to the broken hearted.
a generation born in denial.

they say sometimes you need some time apart
but I've got a bad case of broken heart.
and you're the only one that's got the cure.
and I can't live another day without seeing you smile.


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Subject:"You Need A Hug"
Time:2:10 pm.
Music:Ataris.
maybe you should work for "sick of it all"
or get a job with the l.a.p.d.
did someone switch your ritalin with ephedrine?
Just don't take your fucking problems out on me.

I'd buy you a little fuzzy bunny
I'd put you on my x-mas card list
if you'd promise not to take your job so seriously
and realize you don't have to be so pissed.

life ain't all that bad. life ain't all that bad.
even if henry rollins is your dad.
life ain't all that bad. life ain't all that bad.
buck up little camper, don't be sad.

maybe you could go hunting with ted nugent
and see how many animals you could kill.
I'd pay all of my friends just to hang out with you
and take you out to sizzler for a meal.

I'd take you to my favorite karoke bar
and you sing "let the sunshine in".
you could stomp my ass into oblivion
but that doesn't mean I'll put up with your shit.


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Thursday, May 27th, 2004

Subject:me and Kt C's song!!!!
Time:7:20 pm.
Mood: happy.
Music:phantom planet.
"California"
We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!


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Wednesday, May 26th, 2004

Subject:.::coughithinkyouknowwhothisistocough::.
Time:4:15 pm.
Mood: artistic.
Music:Hoobastank.
I thought it was too good to be true
I found somebody who understands me
Someone who would help me to get through
And fill an emptiness i had inside me
But you kept inside and I just denied
Some things that we should have both said
I knew it was too good to be true
Cause i'm the only one who understands me
What happened to us
We used to be so perfect, now we're lost and lonely
What happened to us
And deep inside I wonder, did i lose my only?
Remember they thought we were too young
To really know what it takes to make it
But we had survived off what we have done
So we could show them all that they're mistaken
But who could have known the lies that would grow
Until we could see right through them
Remember they knew we were too young
We still don't know what it takes to make it
What happened to us
We used to be so perfect, now we're lost and lonely
What happened to us
And deep inside I wonder, did i lose my only?
We could have made it work, we could have found a way,
We should have done our best to see another day
But we kept it all inside until it was too late
And now we're both alone, the consequence we pay
For throwing it all away, for throwing it all away...


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Wednesday, May 19th, 2004

Subject:my new lj
Time:6:35 pm.
Mood: artistic.
Music:System of a Down.
Im making this my new journal, b/c alot of crap was going on w/ my old one... and i dont want to deal w/ it, and hey, change is good. So, this is my new journal, I_luv_converse.. b/c i do! they are great! i like Lows.. they kick major booty. I love music, mostly emo, but not just emo... but no rap, or anything like that. My favorite band is Bright Eyes. (If you dont know who they are, do your self justice, and get their cd.. SUPPORT THE BAND!!!) I love my frineds. I dont have a good home life, but hey, its all good. I know their will be some entires where i talk about this stuff. and ive leard that since ppl dont know how to be mature, that most of the entries will be friends only except for lyrics, just the good ones thats all about my depressed side. If you want to be on my friends, then leave me a comment, and Ill add you, all you have to do is ask. or, you can just add me, and ill add you. I also love it when i have lots of comments... so leave lots! thanks!


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